I know I’m not the only one.
Sometimes the afterglow of the holiday isn’t so warm.
December is one of my favorite months of the year…family, warm smiles, long hugs, time off celebrating the simple things in life, and dreaming about the new year.
December is also one of my least favorite months of the year…worrying about what I “didn’t accomplish” over the past 11 months, starting anew, change, the letting go of a relaxing time, and saying “Hello” to the unknown.
It really frustrates me that I can’t just embrace the former. Why can’t I just stay in the here and now?
Confession: I have a hard time with change. Seriously. For as much as I preach about being a “free spirit,” “gone with the wind type of girl,” I can really get hung up on embracing and enjoying the new of life.
This year it seems especially true. I’ve got so much going on with my life that isn’t in control that I’m spinning a bit.
A new baby only three months away, new clients and a new work schedule I’m getting acquainted with, grappling with my scheduled side and “just-let-it-be” side, blah, blah, blah. We all have these issues…maybe just not said in the exact same way, right?
So at the end of 2013, I’m really trying to let things go. To have life’s little experiences roll off my back a bit more easily. To not take myself so seriously and to not be everything to everyone. I think I have to set up energetic and literal boundaries for myself. Meaning: I let my negative thoughts run rampant over my positive ones.
I need to create loving, soft boundaries for myself that show that I care about my heart, mind, and soul. I’ve been neglecting that a bit. Slack needs to be cut, more love needs to be embraced, and more peace needs to be unearthed. Maybe you feel the same too. We should help each other out. I’ll send you good vibes, if you send some my way 😉
Quick update about The Turquoise Heart, too…I am still trying to decide how I want to proceed with my blog. Again, another area of my life where my expectations go overboard. I’m hoping to post more, and to get my “Spiritual Selfie” program up and running, but I also need to find my footing as I enter 2014. Balance is going to be my new best friend.
Wishing you all an amazing beginning to a new year, be gentle with yourself.