Emergence

Deep bows to you as we not only made it to another year, but we worked hard to get here! Happy 2022!

How did this past year feel for you?

It seems like the collective experience was one of fast-paced changes, heartache, confusion, and trial by fire… but also a total refining and pinpointing what your soul actually needs and wants during this incarnation. That can be painful, but I feel like 2021 really brought our desire to know who we really are — this is time to choose. No more living as a passive bystander. 

I definitely felt that way. I had old thought patterns crumble, and I really got to feel into my authenticity for the first time in lifetimes it feels like! 

Of course, now that we’re in 2022, I still feel this will be at the forefront for us. Especially now through April. So it’s time to get to the heart of it. 

You won’t feel ready. But it is time to jump and know that the net will appear.

Are you feeling this? 

I am and I have some exciting announcements to make in the next few weeks. So please stay tuned! I do want to share a little story about something profound (to me!) that I experienced in the last weeks of 2021…

Since my son River was born in 2014, I have felt a very strong need to go inward. 

I used to blog all the time and really enjoyed sharing stories and offering wisdom and healing through words. 

Then it felt like it was all lost and I was confused and annoyed by my writer’s block. It’s like there was something energetically holding me back.

I tried and tried to get back in to it, but my heart felt like it was whispering “now isn’t the time.” Of course, I fought those words because… well… that’s just me, I tend to push as I am an Aries with a Capricorn moon! Haha! 

But then after my second son, Bowie was born in 2018… 

I kind of gave up. 

I thought… I’ll never feel like I’m really tapped into the magic of the Universe to share its stories anymore. I wasn’t super upset about it, I just kind of rolled over to the fact that this is where I am in life right now and maybe I’ll never get back to that flowing feeling again.

It has been nearly 8 years…

I felt the push to start sharing again just 2 weeks ago! And right after I did, I came across this message from my friend and client, Irma Kaye: 

“I remember in my 30s going through social anxiety during awakening experiences. I never had it before. It was part of my empathic mastery training and it wasn’t easy. At times I thought I might be losing my mind.

Much of society has been thrown into a similarly strange cocoon and will need to re-emerge on their own terms. I also realize many people don’t have that luxury. This is why patience and compassion are important. For those of us who have already been thrown out of the nest, we need to remember what that was like.”

It TOTALLY resonated with my experience because I was going through the deepest awakening I had ever experienced in my life in these 8 years. I needed to coocoon. It made me feel supported and OK that I was going through this transition by reading her words. 

I know my awakening isn’t over – it never really will be, right?! But I feel great knowing I can connect with others through my experiences again. 

Of course, I’m going to try to go slow and not have crazy expectations for myself because who the heck knows what’s in store! But I am happy to show up and lean in to sharing my inner wisdom again! 

Would really love to know if you have or are experiencing this too.