I’m here! I’m in lovely Colorado!
Today has been a mix of deep emotions, hilarious excitement, and stretching outside of my comfort zone…and eventually loving it!
My flight didn’t leave the Twin Cities until 2:15 p.m., so I had a half a day to go on a voiceover audition, sweat it up on a run, pack, and tie up loose ends at home.
Throughout the time before my flight, I was on the verge of tears. You know that feeling when you’re about to cry…where your eyes feel heavy and warm and that little tickle in your throat…well, that was me all day. But I never cried. I woke up with this anxious, nervous energy like I haven’t felt before. I was uncomfortable, but I knew it was a deepening of my soul, even an opening up of a new way of being. Like something old was leaving me, preparing me for this new adventure. But, I didn’t realize this at first.
Sometimes I get too caught up with what people think about me “traveling so often.” It screws with my mind (notice I didn’t say heart) and makes me think that I’m doing something wrong. Because of this, I am in the process of learning to only follow my soul’s guidance and be in acceptance of the blessings my life holds. I’m trying to pay attention only to the thoughts and actions of myself.
To be honest, this trip, as fun and exciting as it is on the outside, is really about me stretching my wings…seeing how far I can fly. Traveling on my own, branching out in a brand new state, and opening myself up to new life path experiences is creating some growing pains.
Thus, the deep emotions of today.
In the past, I have struggled with my fair share of self-esteem issues. Sometimes I feel in control of them, and sometimes I feel like they creep in like a bad song that’s stuck in your head.
Today I’ve been working on the “Am I good enough to do this?” stuff…
“Am I a good enough writer to become a successful author?” “Will anyone want to talk to me at this conference?” “How do I describe who I am/what I do without sounding like a total rambler?” “Why do I deserve to be here?” “Will I really get all the motivation and inspiration I need to do this?”
The answer is simple: yes.
And the same goes for you…whatever you may be grappling with in this moment. You are good enough. For everything. Always. Forever.
One of the biggest pick-me-ups I had today was on the plane.
As I was reading Dr. Wayne Dyer’s book, The Power of Intention, I literally became giddy. I wished and hoped for a highlighter to keep all the profound awesomeness that I was devouring bookmarked (I resorted to iPhone photos! It really works!). I haven’t felt this connected to words, thoughts, and well…intentions, for…ever. Such profound simplicity paired with action steps. My kinda book!
After reading, I was recharged. I felt reenergized and open to take on this trip with a sense of self-worth and radiance from the inside. My internal pilot light was re-lit. I felt it my job to be my best self, in every circumstance. All I needed was a spark…and I got it from that book. Where’s yours? 🙂
A big reason I’m attending this conference is because of what I just wrote about. The power that words have. Words can be many things, but what I read today, those words are magnetic. I want to continue to be magnetic. One sentence, one book, one life with positivity opens up more positivity. I can’t wait to continue on my journey. It’s a great one.
Then, I got another fun nudge from the Universe! So…I booked an amazing deal for a rental car through Hotwire…and I ended up with a sweet mini van! Little ol’ me in a big, I don’t know, 8 seater mini van! I love how the Universe makes it easy to just relax and enjoy life’s little laughs! Trust me, there is nothing wrong with mini vans, they’re actually pretty comfy!
After cruisin’ with the windows down blasting the radio, I checked into my hotel (which is gorgeous!)…
And I made some new friends at a hosted happy hour in the hotel lobby…a doggy named Otto and his sweet owners and a lovely woman in town for a conference of her own.
For those of you who followed me on my last solo trip, I had a difficult time putting myself out there. Frankly, I have a hard time putting myself in “uncomfortable” situations in general…my little bubble can feel too safe sometimes. But this time feels so different, I’ve grown! I actively chose to go to the happy hour and talked with strangers for nearly two hours! Oh the little things can be big for us sometimes, don’t you think? I like this new part of me!
Alright, I’m off to bed tonight expecting sweet dreams for a wonderful tomorrow, for all of us!