Last week, my husband and I took a big step forward in our healing journey with the miscarriage.
We decided to take a a handful of hours to honor the short life of our baby at Taylors Falls, Minnesota.
Taylors Falls is located on the St. Croix river on the border of Minnesota and Wisconsin. It’s about an hour away from where we live and is beautiful, peaceful, and somewhere we enjoy visiting. It was a cold, cloudy day with some spotty showers. We really hoped we would have a sunny, comfortable day…but as we pulled into the state park, the clouds literally began to part. Chilly peeks of afternoon sun greeted us. Amazing.
We hiked for a bit to find a spot that felt “right” and once there, we talked, remembered, honored, and thanked the baby for bringing us so much even in the short amount of time I was pregnant. My husband and I learned so much about living with hope, living with trust and faith that things will work out, and of course, love. Love that is now renewed and strengthened. We also lit three small candles to honor our past, present, and future and read letters we both had written.
The little spot on the river will be a place we can go to when we feel sad, or happy, or…in between 🙂 We also made sure to tell our family where it is, in case they feel they need some closure too.
It feels good to actually acknowledge what happened and not pretend that it didn’t. Everyone deals with death differently, and it took us some time to realize we needed this.
Wishing you peace and healing in any area of your life that you need it right now.