A Tale of Two Newborns, Part 3: Caught in Raging Rapids

blair hug river

New to the Two Newborns story? Catch up by reading the Introduction, Part 1, and Part 2. Also, I want to kindly remind you that these posts come with a *trigger warning.* Thank you for being here. The real world was calling, and I was so ready to get back to a sense of normalcy. Our family of three was greeted with a house full of … [Read more...]

A Tale of Two Newborns, Part 2: Glass Half Empty

Blair and River

Want to catch up? Read the Introduction and Part 1 to join in on my postpartum journey. Also, I want to kindly remind that these posts come with a *trigger warning.* Thank you for being here. So there it was…the haunting words from my sweet (and all too knowing) midwife: “You’ve made the decision now. Don’t let your emotions of … [Read more...]

A Tale of Two Newborns, Part 1: Labor Pains

River hospital chart

Here's the first installment (there's simply so much, I can't put it all in one post!) of my 'A Tale of Two Newborns' story. See the backstory here. Also, I want to kindly remind that these posts come with a *trigger warning.* My birth and postpartum journey is more common than you may think. I want to share the lows, and … [Read more...]

A Tale of Two Newborns: My Postpartum Journey

rivers birthday

I had no idea what to expect from parenthood.  It's better than I could ever have imagined.  But I had to go through the darkest, scariest, deepest depths of what felt like hell to get here. Remembering back to one of my first prenatal appointments with my midwives, I was asked if I had ever been diagnosed with depression. … [Read more...]

Life in the final stage of labor

River smiling

I've been thinking a lot about how social media shapes our perception of what someone's life is like and what they're experiencing. And in all honesty, I wonder how much of what we share is based in actual truth and reality. I know what I share on social media is about 55% truth right now. My experience with postpartum … [Read more...]

A heartfelt thanks + a time for rebuilding

black hills storm house

Thank you.  I wish I could visit each and every one of you and give you the biggest hug ever and let you know in person how much your positive and warm influence in the past few weeks has uplifted my spirit. Without the love, kind thoughts, words, actions, muffins, Cadbury mini egg blondie bars, prayers, pho, massage, rose … [Read more...]

River Robert

bright eyes river

On March 26, 2014 at 7:25 p.m. I welcomed my son. River Robert. 6 pounds // 19.5 inches long // completely perfect in every way I am whole heartedly in love. In awe. And am cherishing these gone-by-quickly days as with him as a newborn. Something I want to share is that I have been suffering from severe postpartum … [Read more...]

Catch me if you can…

pregnancy side by side

Just picture me with my hands on my knees. Panting away. Lifting a finger in the air signaling to the world to just "give me a minute...I'm good!" I've been flexing a lot of muscles lately, bulking up, and doing my best to take some long, luxurious breaths in between all the great changes going on. Oh you know with the whole … [Read more...]

Halo Glow forecast: February

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Has January not been one of the more interesting months that you've experienced? OK...just me? Maybe! I'm already feeling a shift and lightening in the air as we count down to the second month of 2014! Can I get an "AMEN?!"  I'm ready for the lightness and manifesting power and freedom that the year of the horse will … [Read more...]

1.1.14 + new moon in Capricorn

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All those feelings and stirrings I've been experiencing the past few weeks have been honored in a post I came across on one of my favorite websites yesterday...  There are powerful revelations as we enter 2014 from The Power Path (a great resource for monthly, moon, and astrological forecasts). They talk about how the new moon … [Read more...]